Well I just got home from my 30 week appointment. It was supposed to be a routine appointment. Kyle wasn't coming because our last appointment literally lasted 5 minutes, so there was no reason for him to come this time. Boy was I wrong!
I was called back and they weighed me like normal. I covered my eyes like I always do, but I was interested to see how much I had gained in the past 2 weeks. We've been walking a mile every night and I am doing an arm workout daily too. So when she told me I had gained FIVE pounds I literally almost fell off the table. The nurse tries to make me feel better by saying you gain a lot at the end, but it didn't make me feel any better. I had been trying so hard to be active and then this boom was lowered.
So then my OB walked in. She tells me that 5 pounds in 2 weeks really worries her and then she tells me how much I've gained total. A number I didn't want to know. THIRTY pounds! Oh my gosh!! Are you kidding me? She tells me that she was surprised I passed my glucose test at my last appointment with how much weight I've gained. She then tells me that she only wants me to gain 10 more pounds for the ENTIRE pregnancy. (yeah right!) She wants me to watch what I eat and google "diabetic diets while pregnant" because I need to watch what I eat. No crazy crash diets, but a diet.
Ugh. I feel so defeated. I know I've been gaining weight. I can feel it. My clothes don't fit. Yes, my PREGNANCY clothes, don't fit! I had to buy new clothes in a bigger size. But the hits kept coming.
She wants to do a growth sonogram at my next appointment to check on Reagan and if she's measuring big she may want to induce at 38-39 weeks. When she measured my belly it was measuring at 31-32 weeks. I'm almost 30 weeks.
This breaks my heart. I haven't talked about this on the blog because everyone is entitled to their own birth, but Kyle and I want to do a natural birth and have been taking a Bradley Birthing class for the past 8 weeks. We are so excited about this and are so ready for it! That is, if I'm not induced. When you're induced your body is forced to dilate before it's ready and brings on crazy contractions that are stronger than a normal labor. It's very unlikely to get through an induced labor naturally.
So pretty much I feel like I've failed my baby by gaining so much weight. I should have watched what I ate. I should have put that cookie back. I should have had more self control.
My next appointment also had to be pushed back an extra week and a half because the sono tech is only in on Mondays and in 2 weeks that Memorial Day. Just annoying.
Praying I can stick to healthy eating because I have no self control. I LOVE food! Any extra prayers that I can stick to it and that baby is measuring on track instead of ahead would be greatly appreciated.