I Will Gladly Serve

Last night while reading Raegan her bedtime story from her The Beginner's Bible we read the story of Jesus healing the blind man.

As Jesus was walking along, he saw a man who had been blind from birth. “Rabbi,” his disciples asked him, “why was this man born blind? Was it because of his own sins or his parents’ sins?”

“It was not because of his sins or his parents’ sins,” Jesus answered. “This happened so the power of God could be seen in him."

My eyes immediately welled up. 

Amazing how God' s word does that to you.

From the beginning I've always said that God's purpose through all of this was so that God's glory could be shown.

We are infertile to bring God glory.

Raegan was born with a cleft palate to bring God glory.

But only if we allow our story to.

Kyle and I could cry and lament about the trials that we've been through and how God has abandoned us in our time of need, which I have felt sometimes, but that's not what God calls us to do.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.

Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.

Proverbs 3:5-6

God calls us to trust in Him with ALL our heart! That has been hard for me at times. It was hard when we lost our baby. I was angry and I was frustrated that He would give us what we had been wanting and take it away just as quickly.

I turned away from God after our loss. I admit it. I didn't want anything to do with Him, but during that time God was molding our story so that His faithfulness would be shown.

Cue Raegan.

She is the definition of God's faithfulness and her story shines His light daily!

I get goosebumps thinking about all of the times that I've been approached by friends who are blown away by our/her story. From the beginning of IVF through her cleft palate repair, God has been present.

I am so proud of my daughter's story. 

I am proud of our infertility journey.

Because in the end, God's glory is what matters. 

And if we can take part in His amazing plan, just a little bit, I will gladly serve.