Motherhood Is

Motherhood.

When I hear the word "motherhood" so many things come to mind.

Motherhood is wonderful, rewarding, trading in high heels for comfortable clothes (i.e. Pinkblush Maternity), full of hugs and kisses, a blessing, a privilege, beautiful, joy, and love.

But on the flip side, motherhood is also exhausting, emotional, challenging, denying yourself, learning to let go, wanting to pull out your hair, wondering if you're making the right decision, and so much more.

But then you see that sweet little face look up at you, grab your knees, and give you the biggest hug in the whole world, right after they through the biggest fit known to man, and you are quickly whisked back to the feelings of "this is worth it."

Even in the middle of all the crazy I have to remind myself that this is good. This crazy life is good.

Learning to trust God in His plan has been rough over the years. First with our first loss in 2013 to our second in 2016. To now being pregnant with our 3rd surprise baby after 2 IVF babies.

Am I nervous about having 3 under 3?

You betcha. Terrified some days. Especially on the hard days when I want to pull my hair out and not being able to imagine adding a newborn to the mix.

But like the saying goes, if God brings you to it, He will bring you through it. 

“And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:20

You better believe I'll be hanging onto that sweet little bible verse come August when Landon arrives.

These sweet children are the biggest blessing and biggest life accomplishment I've ever done. I am thankful for them and also clinging to the saying "the days are long and the years are short."

Because in the end motherhood is everything and I want to treasure every moment, even the hard ones.

photography by Lane B Photography

Ashley's dress (similar) *my favorite place to buy maternity clothes*

Ashley's earrings

Raegan's romper

Raegan's bow

Hudson's outfit

Hudson's moccasins